Shoelace Diaries


Free-Write: My Heart Speaks.
September 26, 2008, 11:19 pm
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Disclaimer: I love to write, it is my release. But, I don’t publish a lot of blog posts, mostly because I am human and afraid of the feedback I will get from them. And also because most everything I write doesn’t perfectly meet my own personal expectations. I only publish posts that I feel perfectly define how I am feeling, or accurately communicate whatever it is that I want to say at that particular time. In an attempt to put all of that behind, here is a free-write inspired by an evening spent with my daughter Kwynn. I ask that you read this with an open mind, looking through your “love” glasses, and please comment if you feel like doing so. Thank you.

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Here I sit with nothing to show for the last 30 minutes of observation but a blinking cursor on a blank page. I attempt to put all faith, all trust in my fingers…to translate a message, to communicate a language only a swelling heart can speak. Fearful of a perfected expectation, I let go in experiment. Thus, my heart speaks.

What a night, another sleepless night finds me. But this night is different, and-so I find reason to chuckle. The day started at 5pm, when the exchange of a smile, hug, and kiss between a father and his daughter filled a low heart running on fumes, running low enough to illuminate the warning light. Only fitting, tonight is a night to end a day such as this one, a day only significant to it’s owners.

I cry. I am saved from failure by teardrops, that one by one, drip in unison with every pounding heartbeat in my chest. With each trickled tear that falls, I see each smile she so generously gave me today, and I cry.

In efforts to calm an excited soul, I close my eyes. A soothing rhythm created by heavy, deep-but soft breathing from a nearby bed interrupts a sound that only silence can make. This rhythm presents a pattern of breath only made by the deep sleep of an angel. I pause to soak in a brief moment of perfection, a gift from heaven.

I sniffle quietly, hoping to not disturb her peaceful nightly sleepover at God’s house in heaven.

Blank faced, yet so expressive; she speaks to me even when asleep. And I reply, trying not to let my weakness overtake:

“Daddy’s here Kwynnie, daddy hears you. And I all I can say is thank you. Thank you for allowing me to love you as much as I do. Never forget the love that you create within me, the love found in a heart that beats purely for you. These tears are good tears, don’t you worry. Yes I am sad, but only sad for you. I am sorry you have to go through what you do. You are such a strong little girl. Your strength gives me strength. Your love pulls me along. Your smile sheds light on the darkest worlds. Your eyes melt the coldest hearts. Your presence steals all attention. You are the definition of perfect, and I have the honor of being your dad. That is enough for tonight sweety, you go back to bed. It’s ok honey, I will be here when you wake up. You get your rest and we will play tomorrow. Daddy loves you baby. Gnight.”



What is a Dropshipper?
September 26, 2008, 9:21 am
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More and more people are taking advantage of, and using the convenience of online shopping. Below is an article I wrote that discusses a service (sometimes not known by the consumer) used by online retailers and performed by product suppliers…all in efforts to save some money, add convenience, and satisfy the end customer. Below is the introduction to the article. To view the article in it’s entirety, visit the Dropshipper Basics Blog… or click the link following the article introduction.

What is a Dropshipper?

As an online consumer, you’ve probably purchased a product that was fulfilled by a dropshipper without even knowing it. Lots of people don’t know who a dropshipper is and what a dropshipper does. In an effort to clear up misconceptions this article answers the questions, “Who is a dropshipper?” and “What does a dropshipper do?”

For the rest of this article, click here.



Ode to Jackson: Romantic Relationship Gone Bad
September 10, 2008, 3:55 pm
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This post is dedicated to my 6 year old nephew Jackson, and anyone else who has felt the sting of a romantic relationship gone bad. May the lessons learned prepare you for future relationship opportunities.

As most people can relate, a lot is invested, shared, and involved in relationships of any kind. Recently, my 6 year old nephew Jackson experienced new emotions and feelings; unavoidable elements of life that he has never experienced before…all which came through an emotional breakup of a romantic relationship.

Below is the email I received from Jackson’s father braking the news.

“In case you didn’t hear, Jackson told us last night that he broke up with his girlfriend yesterday! He didn’t appreciate the fact that she was following him around everywhere on the playground and that she also kissed him on his chest. He has a scrape on his side and I guess she gave it to him, so it must have been a
hard break up.

He also proceeded to tell us that he asked her many times to quit following him but she wouldn’t and said, “No way baby, you’re too hot!” (Jackson’s words) Jackson said he doesn’t know her name but he does dream about her every night! Blake and Brooke knew of this relationship, but this was the first that we have heard of it!

He asked that we take him to Wendy’s last night and have a frosty, fries, and chicken nuggets, as he didn’t want to talk about it anymore! If you could drop Jackson a line and let him know you are thinking about him during this ‘really tough’ time he would probably appreciate it!”

Below are my encouraging words of support and love to my beloved nephew, Jackson.

“Ode to Jackson:

I hope the Frosty, Fries, and Chicken Nuggets numbed the pain. It’s ok to cry for a little bit, but keep that head up. Word of advice from Uncle Snake, just concentrate on football and karate. Girls will do nothing but love you and smother you, until the day were they brake your heart.

It’s not your fault that you are so good-looking. It’s wasn’t your choice to be the ladies-man. Your natural electric yet glorious hair, soul-melting eyes, heart-warming love, and bad-boy reputation shields your inner persona,…making it near impossible to allow these so called women the opportunity to get to know your inner feelings and love.

You are a lot like me Jackson, the girls only want your body. The real you is trapped under that near perfect candy-coated shell. It makes it difficult for women to put aside their in-voluntary, lust-intended, hormonal wants and desires. Don’t worry bud, there are plenty more hearts out there to brake. You did the right thing.

Look to ice-cream, skateboarding, music, and cartoons for the answers in life. You will succeed. I Love you man.

A well experienced,

Uncle Snake”



Proud Daddy Moment: Kwynn Becomes a Cheerleader
August 28, 2008, 10:41 am
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Although Kwynn gives me numerous “Proud Daddy Moments,” this one in particular I wanted to share with everyone. This is a video I took of Kwynn voluntarily becoming the newest member of the Pleasant Grove Vikings football cheer squad. She absolutely loved it. I coach football for the 8th grade Lehi Pioneers team, and we had our first game last night . This video was taken while our team was warming up and waiting our turn to take the field.  It took some pretty serious negotiating and bribery to pull this little girl away from the rest of the squad when it was time. I don’t know about you, but I think she is a natural!



Five For Thursday: A Four For Friday Tribute
May 22, 2008, 8:04 am
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In preparation for The Beli Blog’s “Four For Friday,” I have put together 5 questions of my own to get the wheels turning upstairs.

1. Would you tell someone if they had food in their teeth, if their zipper was down on their pants, or if they had something on their face? Or, would you not bring it up and have them find out on their own?

2. What was the last meal you ate at your home, and what was it? What was the last meal you ate out of your home, where did you eat, and what was it?

3. What type of shoes are you wearing right now?

4. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?

5. If you started your own business, what type of business would it be, and what would your name be?



Mountain Dew, Biscuit, and Twix
May 15, 2008, 7:35 am
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Today is going to be a good day. How can I tell you ask? Well, its currently 8:22am, and I have already been presented with gifts; but not just any gifts, gifts that came truly from the heart. Two close friends of mine (who also happen to be co-workers) expressed their love and appreciation (at least I think that’s what they were doing) through a beverage, a biscuit, and candy.

Wes gave me a 20 oz. Mountain Dew and a McDonalds Sausage Biscuit. It is important to note that he paid for both items himself, even though McDonalds is giving away some sort of biscuit free of charge today, and today only. Needless to say the Biscuit is already gone, and the Dew is about half way there. Thanks for bustin’ out the wallet Wes, and making my day!

Clark presented a Twix candy bar to me this morning just minutes after Wes left my office from giving me his gifts. This most desirable Twix candy bar consists of chocolate, caramel, and cookie bars…in the form of two seperate consumable yummies; all speaking good things to the heart and tummy at the same time. Clark, thank you for giving me the Twix candy bar, even though you tried taking it back after you had already given it to me. And, for the record there are two for me, and none for you!

Now that the day has had a fabulous kick off, I am excited to see what other presents I will receive as the day goes on! (In case you all are wondering, my office is on the 2nd floor. Just go to the “loud, obnoxious commotion in noise form.” When you have found this commotion, you will have also found Sidwell. Ask him for further directions to my office.



Free-Write: Questions
May 9, 2008, 8:48 am
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Why is it that a single thought, of a single person can bring tears running down my face?
How can I miss someone so much, even when they are sitting right next to me, holding my hand so tightly?
Does she ever wake up in the middle of the night and think of me?
How do the eyes of one communicate to the eyes of another, if eyes don’t have mouths to talk?
Will she ever know how much I truly love her?
Does She know that my heart beats for her?
Am I the first thing she thinks about when she wakes up, and the last thought in her mind as she goes to bed at night?
How and why does absence make the heart grow fonder?
Why does time move so slow when she is away from me, but go by so fast when I am with her?
Is there such thing as too much love?…too good of a relationship?…too much happiness?
Does she live for me, as I live for her?
Can she close her eyes and see my face?
Does she think my smile lights up a dark, dark world?
Will she ever understand how much she means to me?